that perseverance can melt any kind of hindrance~

"Kung ayaw may dahilan. Kung gusto naman, maraming paraan" ~ Antukin, Rico Blanco

That was what I realized after spending a night with my seminarian friends at the Multi Purpose Health Center (MPHC) of Smokey Mountain 2. In the morning, we were asked what we want to do, either to stay at home because of the bad weather condition or continue going to Smokey Mountain and spend the day. We decided to go.

Redemptorist Seminarians with Smokey Mountain 2 (SM2) youth.
More pictures in here. Click!.

Though we had difficulty riding jeepneys, got our feet soaked in the dirty flood, struggled with our weak umbrellas easily tattered by the strong and finally, being in a confusion of weather to stay overnight or not, we still went on. Sharing ilfe experiences with poor people under a worst condition was far better than staying in the comfort of one's home worrying about them. In that night, I was able to hear life stories of the youth of Smokey Mountain. I want to take more action so as to prevent another youth to be given less a chance to experience life as a youth in its fullness.

that plans may change, be ready for anything~

"As much as you want to plan your life, it has a way of surprising you with unexpected things that will make you happier than you originally planned." - Lyra, 06/02/09

 

For example..
You plan to eat on Jollibee... errr I planned to eat in KFC for dinner tonight but the line was too long. I was very hungry and wanted to eat as soon as possible so I went to the stall beside KFC in Gateway's Foodcourt. The stall sells dumplings! In the end, I paid about 20 pesos less than the meal I already plan to eat and I discovered that Dumpling's strawberry iced tea is delicious! I 

Another one...
For so many years, one may have stayed in a relationship with someone she thought she loved. Yet, everyday, she thinks that there is something missing despite the current stability. And then in one sudden moment, she forgets about the years they shared as she met another guy who for some reason, felt like his 'Mr. Right". So she breaks up with Boyfriend for Long Years and for the next years, she never felt more happy! Actually, I hope this happy ending happens to me~ I pray so~

In my last year in college, I discovered the profession I really wanted to be part of - to be a doctor for children! BUT, after four months from being a fresh graduate from university, my plan has changed. Today's dream is more simple, more easy to reach, more fulfilling - I dream for more people to take action against poverty! In this light, I want to be professor of Social Work in the university to help students realize what I realized - and to feel what great happiness I feel in helping poor people presently. and simultaneously, continue being staff of ACCE-Philippines - a lifetime commitment, if I can. ^__^ I

that lacking sleep is better than sleeping all day~

because I've always been a deep sleeper, I never knew what I was missing. Last night, we spent time with Fine Interaction Team, ACCE-Japan Supporting team for Smokey Mountain. It was not a formal event but more like get-together of friends. While I was asleep, Tomomi, Koji and Shohei shared life stories which I regret not hearing. I could have learned more about them, understand them more and improve friendship but I was asleep.

So from now on, I will always try to make the most out of time because you never knew how important each minute is when it''s already too late as hours already passed.

And from now, I will change this blog to "what I learned today?" to keep it simple and so that I could easily write everyday. I missed you blog. Sorry, I was busy with the tour and summer camp. ^__^

5 second poem~

CHASing after you, I believe I'll always be.
Even though, often it's only your back, I see.
But I don't mind and you will never mind.
The magic you've done, only time will find.

It was all too sudden - knowing you.
Compatibility level suddenly went through.
Just like my poem, just like your haiku.
Writing is easy because of you~

hope the pictures will say it all. :D

Due to my work schedule, I've always been too tired to write when I get home. There are sentence formed on my way home yet when I sit in front of the laptop in the last hours of my day, I can't help but spend it on plain leisure like playing Flyff or drooling over anime. xD

Just want to save this photos from the places I've been to recently.



"Dalampasigan" (shot taken from Perez, Quezon)



"Tahanan" (also from Perez, Quezon)




"Demolisyon" (photo taken from Smokey Mountain 2)

Oyasumi Nasai~ :)

more than being a crybaby~

Sometimes, I cry even when there is no reason and sometimes I feel glad but tears start to fall down on my cheeks. One instance was yesterday when me and my block-mates talked about love. The topic started at cliché-questions - what is your ideal guy? Then, it went to deeper topics such as - "for I've seen love die so many times, that even the longest years of relationship could also come into end". To prove this Ate Clang asked if I see Jeric as the one I would marry. I was quite unsure of what I would answer. I told them "I wouldn’t want to think about it yet, I want to love him as where we are right now because I don't want to get trapped again by thinking too much of the future and of marriage while in turn, our relationship would end."

 

"It depends on the reason why you enter into relationships. Coming from a Catholic point of view, I want to have a boyfriend who I expect to be my husband. If that isn't your reason then what is?", asked Ate Clang.

 

A moment of silence surrounded us. Disrupting this moment, I talked my heart out. "Even if I can say I'm in loved with Jeric, I can't say I had totally moved on with what happened with my past pseudo-boyfriend. Jeric knew that and..even when I start to cry because of the past, he listens and comforts me." I cried. They wondered. "It's just that I can't help but cry when I remember how Jeric treats me and is so good to me."

to start living at the "now"

I've been pondering on why I feel so lazy or rather sleepy today but I can't figure it out. I've slept rather early last night at around 10 in the evening and was fighting with myself to get up this morning by 8:30. These lazy days have come more often now that I've finished my studies and graduated. I feel like my life has passed me by and that there is nothing left to do since I've been there-done that. I don't like what I feel but I don’t know how to rub off these thoughts and feelings. I'm just waiting for this day to end so that another days starts. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

 

 And yes I've grown tired of waiting. I think all my life, I've spent most of my time waiting. I waited for Mama at school so that I'll watch Doraemon or Bananas in Pajamas after.  I waited for Papa to go home unexpectedly from his job in Sorsogon so that he, Ian and I could go bike-riding in parks or swimming at the 3-minute walk beach in our barangay. I waited for Ian to finish playing Flyff so that I too could play. I waited for myself to finish high school then finish college. I wait for the MRT. I wait for my friends. I wait for Papa to come home. I wait for Ian to finish high school so that our family could live together again here in Manila. I wait for Saturdays with Pika to come so that I'll be able to spend a day happily and when that days is over, I wait again. Now, I think I'm waiting for my new life as a social worker to start, a new life as a daughter living with her family, a new life as a woman fighting for the equality of men and women, a new life as a mother and wife implementing social work principles in family life. Maybe, it's better for me to stop waiting and start living now.