nobody said it was easy

Writing is releasing one's feelings of anger, sadness, happiness or any other. That was what I've been doing since then. 

I see no point in being online but I stay online, for the sake of someone being able to talk to me anytime that he can. Yes, nobody said it was easy but we could always do something to make it easy. It's in our hands, but I guess it take more will to make it so. I wondered before why you were thinking about whether there would be a time that'll come that I'll give up on you. That left a mark. For I haven't even thought about it yet I also thought about the same question myself however the subject was you and not me. To be world's apart is hell but to feel like you're close even though not being physically beside each other is heaven. I felt like that before and selfishly, I want to feel it again. Is it not the sharing of one's life that love is about? So then, I'm wondering why we're put in a circumstance of just waiting, and ignoring the present. In a different world apart from yours, someone is always thinking about you, worrying about you, wondering what you're doing and the same person wonders whether you're thinking the same. However, in the recent days and weeks, it has gone not parallel, not same, not linear, untouched. And I feel like as days pass by, we're slowly forgetting the past that we once were.

These sentences are just random and purposefully paragraphed that one would understand minimally. I guess it's better to keep deeper thoughts and feelings for myself.

Writer's Block: That's good eats

Peanut butter in rice looks weird but I really really like it, as a child as well as mango and rice, cheese and rice, egg pie and tocino. :)

Writer's Block: So much for counting sheep

I'd like to rise up from bed again and do anything but becomes too lazy so grabbing a book, turning on the radio or sharing stories with my brother and father until we get sleepy works. :3

"The world couldn't possibly end today, because it's already tomorrow in Australia"

 ‎"The world couldn't possibly end today, because it's already tomorrow in Australia" - Charles M. Schulz

It's the most striking quote I read today from the Reader's Digest. It's witty yet has a full load of a message which to me means... I can only take on 8 hours of work a day. After that, my body would rumble about hunger, head ache and sleepiness. After the 8 hours meeting of our Secretariat, I would still want to reply to emails and do some paper work but I just simply can't because I need to stop! or my body would drown into tiredness. I couldn't have learned to save myself from bring workaholic if I haven't experienced intense chest pains and days of being bedridden. In the end, there is a reason why the "8-hour a day working time" was approved by the government and why workers were able to win it from their struggle with their employers and factory owners a few years ago. It is to saved the human race and to keep humanity sane. That there is tomorrow, wherein you can do your work for today that you can't possibly do when you've reached your limits. :)) It's not entirely antagonistic with "don't leave for tomorrow what you can do today" since you've already done what you're supposed to do for today or until what you can do for today. I'm getting more confusing by the second. :3

Anyway, what I wanted to say in a nutshell is, Charles Schulz tell us to be optimistic and to look forward to tomorrow.

Apart from that, I also had another thinking about "Japanese people are living in the future, metaphorically and literally".
Because..

1. They are living in a high-tech world, with all the machineries needed for agriculture to medicine available in the hands of their farmers and medical professionals.
2. They are an hour ahead of the Philippines. 

I just thought, it's not impossible to invent a time machine since riding a plane to Japan from Philippines seems like riding a time machine to the future already, without one knowing it.

to open-up yourself so that other's may come in

Picture yourself talking with an old guy and him giving advise of how you can forgive yourself by letting all the thoughts fade into nothingness from your head, so that other thoughts may come in. It's the unforgettable scene I got from Eat, Pray, Love played by Julia Roberts. In fact, all I did in "All Saint's Day" was watch movies (since I couldn't go home to Bicol to visit my departed and loved uncle, Tito Jun). 

Movies I watched today: :D
1. The Switch
2. Eat, Pray, Love
3. The Social Network (I have to write about it next time!)

I actually I heard the same lesson from Hunter x Hunter. Kurapika's teacher was telling Kurapika "how could I help you fill your mind when your mind is already like a cup filled with water". He told Kurapika to drain the cup first. It's true.

That's why I believe with what Socrates said that "wisdom is knowing that I know nothing". In that way, you'll start to crave for learning and knowing the things you don't know. Logical. That's the mistake of most people - who closes their shells enough and just pokes up their head to tell others about their own idea. You know what they remind me of? Turtles.

Pictures of cute turtles are from here.

Turtles are afraid and sensitive. or a better description are snails. Once you hold a snail, they crawl inside their shells, locking their selves away from the outside world. Why are they so scared? Why do they think they know all when it's an impossibility for one t know everything.

Since a few months ago, I started to open up and I've gained a handful of learnings which I haven't written yet in these blog. Now, I'm taking another advice to "accept all the other people you meet in your lifetime as your teacher". I'll try... No, I'll do whatever it takes not to be a turtle nor a snail. 

Writer's Block: You can't take that away from me!

I'd rather have a small cozy home than a mansion.

because I experienced mopping for about half and hour and it felt so tiring. >.< I felt pity for those who work as janitors because they have to do it for 8 hours or so. But then, I could hire a domestic helper to save me from the task. But then again, I'd rather not! Because, it's like passing the "job of the female" to another female thus reinforcing the thought that house work is only for women, which is NOT TRUE. I'd rather do it by myself and share it with the male specie/s who'll be living with me under the same roof. Anyway...

I spent the morning cleaning 2 dormitory rooms in the seminary that would serve as rooms of Kamalayan from the 28th to 30th. They will have "lakbay-aral" (the Filipino term for study tour) in Manila. The purpose of the lakbay-aral is for them to gain knowledge about urban poverty and its connection with rural poverty. Another objective is to show the historical background of war as one of the causes of poverty. By the end of the tour, we would like them to realize that it is not true that there are always better opportunities for them once they choose to work in the city. In the end, we would like them to value the life of farmers and fisher folks and move them to take action to solve poverty from the rural area.

Lakbay-Aral Program for Kamalayan
October 28 - 7 hour travel from Perez to Manila | Orientation | Dialogue with the Redemptorist priest, Fr. Willy
October 29 - Intramuros and Fort Santiago | Home stay at Smoky Mountain
October 30 - Discussion about the Push and Pull of Urban and Rural Poverty | Roaming around Makati (exposure to rich) | Solidarity dinner with Volunteers of ACCE (Japanese food. Yata!)
October 31 - Back to Perez

Kamalayan stands for "Kabataang Mabuti ang Layunin sa Bayan" (Youth who has a good objective for the nation). They are an organization of high school students and out-of-school youth aged 12-21 years old from a rural poor community in Perez, Alabat, Island, Quezon Province.

 Here is a picture of them after the success with the Cayacas Street Dance Festival
last June 2010. "Cayacas" pertains to the leaf of the coconuts which is highly regarded by the
people of Perez, since primary crop in the agricultural area is coconut.



They were my oo-facilitators at the "Workshop of Poverty in Perez"
for the children scholars, last May 2010 (Summer Tutorial Class).
 

I miss them! and after 3 months of not being able to go to Perez, I'm looking forward to seeing them again. <3